summer time kicking off

well, so far, my summer has started off pretty okay. i'm constantly at a state of either really happy or worried. i'm really pleased with how things are going now, but I'm always worrying about what is to come. I don't want this forever. I don't want to commute so long to work a job that is not really getting me anywhere. Especially since they've been cutting hours. I did however ask them to not have me on when I need to sit through rush hour to get to work on time, and they actually listened. However, I cut myself at work and had to get stitches and now I'm missing out on hours which may or maynot be covered by workmans comp. If it doesn't, i'm slightly screwed, but I guess i'm getting used to not having money. It just sucks because I'd like to pay colin, but I can't do that without having zero money left over which I need because I drive so much and gas prices are going up fast again. i really hope i can find a full time job in the city so I don't have to drive as much. I feel like I'm wasting myself sometimes, and then other times I feel like I'm doing a lot better than others. I just don't know at all. I'm honestly kind of afraid, but I can't let that get to me. I can do this all on my own. I'm so convinced that I can. I just need a full time job.