I never realized how important electricity was until yesterday. I mean, I've always known it was important, but I guess it was something a lot of people take advantage of, including myself. I guess a lot of NH, eastern mass, even some parts of central mass, and probably anywhere north of mass has either lost or still doesn't have electricity due to the ice storm. I feel kind of shitty knowing that I take advantage of something I rely on every single day. I guess it goes to show that we need to really be thankful for those things we never really think much of, but use more than anything.

I've been chilling in Lowell at Aarons dorm in umass. It's been cool (minus the lack of electricity last night). His suitemates are nice (well, the two that I've met). College would be cool if there was no academic aspect of it hahaha. Lots of cute boys ha. Too bad good looking boys are usually assholes. Oh well.

I've been feeling kinda lonely lately, but it's not that I can't get a dude (not to sound cocky), but I think my standards are just too high. I have every reason to set them high though. Maybe part of my problem is the inablity to say no, or the fact that I never really gave myself much credit, but guys seem to enjoy leading me on, and then dropping me, or wanting something, and insisting on keeping it totally under wraps, and to be completely honest, I'm pretty tired of it. I understand that a lot of dudes think with their dick more than with their head or even their heart, but come on. It's not hard to treat a girl like a human being and not just something to pleasure yourself with. It disgusts me sometimes. And I've had my moments, but some of these girls who throw themselves onto guys are no better. It's one thing if you're at a party, drunk, baked or what have you, and something goes down, but when these sluts go out lookidng to get used. Does it honestly make them happy? Like I said, I've had my moments, but it just makes me feel worthless after. I know there's no such thing as a perfect relationship, but I'd rather find someone I can love and not just someone to fuck for a while.

On another note, I'm stoked for the show tomorrow. Ive been listening to brunt of it for a long time, and I've been to a LOT of shows, and I've still yet to see them. I've seen have nots and Interrobang before, who are pretty good too, so it should be a good show. I guess some other band is playing but I've never heard of them. I've said this before, and I'll probably say it forever, but if I could make a living out of shows and photography, I would be set for life.

Photography is something that has always been a passion for me. My mom is really into it, and I guess it rubbed off on me. I have no schooling background for it, but I think I'm pretty decent for being an ammature. I hope to get some more lenses and flashes for my camera to experiment and get better results. I think my favorite photographer is joelle andres. She's pretty much living my dream, and I look up to her because she's a really good photographer, loves really awesome music and she combines them so well by taking sick pictures at awesome shows and doing promotional shots for so many of my favorite bands. She just put out "the ska calender" and I'm really glad I got one. Not only does it rule but Im glad I get to support someone I look up to.

Anyways, iguess were going to make brownies so I'm done.