No Sleeeeeeep

I'm kind of ashamed to admit this, but today I watched Star Wars for the first time. I'm really glad I was high though because it was so fucking epic. I only watched Episode IV, but I now understand what the hype is(was?) all about. I'm also glad that I've caught up on movies like: Step Brothers, Pineapple Express, Fight Club (the whole movie), Garden State, Wall-E, and Big Daddy. I never was one to watch movies. Always too busy because I'm out hanging with people, but now, everyone comes here, so I don't really have to go anywhere. It's pretty cool.

I'm pretty bummed that I had to resort to boring hair again for a job. I really need one though. I honestly wish hair color didn't matter when it comes to the professional world. Also, I'm pretty bummed that most jobs require a drug test. I'm so limited.

I'm really glad that weed isn't a priority anymore for me. When I was hanging out with Graham and Jonny, I felt like I HAD to buy 50+ bucks of headies weekly. I got so tired in that period of time. I mean, I love smoking, but all the time was too much. Burnout by Green Day pretty much described me. I'm glad I'm less tired now (and still getting high).

I've developed such a shitty sleeping habit, though. Both Jerry and I. We haven't gone to sleep until around 5 or 6 each day, and usually don't wake up before 2, sometimes til even 4. It's awful. I passed out on the couch at 11 tonight though, and so did he. I woke up and went to bed, but then I woke up at like 3:30 and now I can't fall back asleep. I wish I had some Nyquil or something to knock me out. I really want to be awake during the day tomorrow. I'm going to be a grown up and go "confirm" that Bob's Famous Food has gotten my application. I'd honestly really like to work there. They sell maddddd booze. And it's a nice little store with a cool deli.

Other than bad sleeping habits, I feel like I'm doing well on the "responsibility" front. I clean a lot here, seeing as I don't pay Jerry's mom rent yet. I cook too, since we ran out of frozen things to eat. Though, I'm going to have to find more ways to make pasta more interesting. I'm also considering making bread because we have none and I don't want to spend money on it hahaha. I've also discovered that I'm pretty good at pancakes. I feel like a mom lololol.

Jerry turns 21 in like 11 days. I might bake him a cake. or something. I think we're going to take the train into Boston that day and get really drunk in the process. I love taking the train, and I love Boston. It's possibly one of my favorite places. If it weren't so expensive, I would move there when I have the money. I don't feel so out of place there. In Northampton, you're either a hippie, a hipster, a struggling artist, an "alternative musician", gay, or homeless. There are a few cool people, and it's a super cool town, but even in one of the most accepting towns, I don't fit in. At least I don't feel like I do. I'm glad I'm two steps closer to where I'd like to be more often.

I'd really like to travel more. I wish I was better at making music so I could be in a band good enough to tour. I don't see the point in staying in one town for your entire life. I've met some people who have never left their hometown, or haven't moved far from it, and I just don't understand why. There's a whole world beyond your driveway. Why not go out and see it. I mean, yea, it cost money to travel, but honestly, I'd rather invest in traveling than a house to confine yourself to. I could probably live in an apartment, or condo for my whole life, just so I could have the money to travel. I've traveled a lot for being only 18, and I'm really thankful for that. I've seen some pretty damn cool places, but knowing there are so many more to see just makes me want to get in my car and go. I've seen so much of New England, it's almost getting boring. It's time to travel again.

In May, I think a bunch of us are going down to New Jersey for Bamboozle. It's very expensive, but it's going to be worth it. I've never really been to something that big. I've never been to Warped Tour (though I am seriously considering this year). I think the biggest I've been to was the Ska Is Dead tour this year. I had so much fucking fun. I've said this so many times before, and I'll probably say it a million times more, but ska is my all time favorite. It's pretty much the reason I didn't kill myself in middle school.




Sometimes I feel like a broken record.